SKINNY Bucket List
Things I can’t wait to do as the weight comes off!
As the weight really begins to come off, the small changes I see in my body are producing big moments in my journey, and it’s making me more and more excited for life post-op! My best friend noticed that as I get smaller, my corner on the couch seems further and further away from her spot. It’s not anything big, but it’s more than I’ve had in years. Hope. A light at the end of this tunnel. And I’m not out of it yet, but it’s there! It’s about the time that I’ve noticed many others really beginning to notice and embrace all the changes (3 months), and I seem to be right on schedule. I am finally really beginning to see significant changes in my body, things are getting smaller and my clothes are noticeably bigger.
It’s about the time that I’ve noticed many others really beginning to notice and embrace all the changes (3 months), and I seem to be right on schedule. I am finally really beginning to see significant changes in my body, things are getting smaller and my clothes are noticeably bigger. I’m already dreaming of new summer clothes!
It’s in these little victories that our ultimate success really lies, so focusing on these little things, all the ways that living will be easier, and more satisfying, and less stressful – it matters. It’s so important to not get caught up in being impatient and frustrated and discouraged at all of the natural valleys and plateaus our weight forms as it goes down – because nothing worth having comes easy. And now I can look at this list (I plan to post more parts!) and remember all the amazing things I’ve already accomplished.
- Crossing my legs.
- Taking a flight anywhere without worrying about my weight/size even once.
- My rings getting too big. Hey, I’m not married – it just means I get new rings! 😂
- Wearing dresses again. Comfortably. And looking good in them? (Gulp!)
- No more excess chins! I mean, as great as holding your phone way up over your head for selfies might be…
- More energy!!!!!!! In my case, I have spent a very large portion of my life asleep. This is a culmination of a bunch of different factors, but the fact is that when I’m sticking to my ordered diet and exercise plan, the rest of the factors are usually pretty easy to overcome. Naps are still one of my favorite things, but I don’t need them every day like I used to.
- One day: wear a wedding dress, and look pretty in it. This is a long ways away, but I’m like many other girls and have dreamt of my wedding day since I was old enough to know what weddings were. Provided that I get married one day, this is one I can’t wait to cross off.
- One day: successfully sustain a pregnancy and have a healthy baby without worrying about my weight and what effect it will have. I’ve wanted to be a mom most of my life. I remember wanting to start to have babies by the time I was 20, and I definitely wanted at least 6 of them. Things have certainly changed since then (thankfully!), but I still want to be a mom one day, and I want that relationship to start with me being healthy and able to create a nurturing environment without the added worry of being obese.
- Traveling to Rome and actually being able to walk around the city and sightsee the way a normal person would. There are a ton of other places I’d love to go, too, but Rome has been my ideal travel location for nearly two decades.
- Wear boyfriend’s t-shirts – and have them be big on me. There has always been something so cute to me about the idea of wearing a boy’s shirt, and swimming in it. The comfy, big t-shirt that hangs nearly down to the knees, that smells like him – can’t wait for that one.
- Not being so humiliated by the thought of swimming in a public pool. I don’t need to be the hottest girl there, but it would be nice to be able to go for a swim without feeling like you’re the receiving end of a joke that lasts from the moment your swimsuit is on until the moment you’re back in your own clothes.
- Needing to ask for a smaller size instead of a bigger one when I’m trying on something and it doesn’t fit. Personally, I don’t remember the last time this happened. Trying on clothes as the weight comes off is going to be a brand new experience! I’m used to loathing the dressing room. Maybe we can kiss and make up one day.
- Not needing to worry about how small the stalls in public restrooms are. Uncomfortable, awkward, embarrassing, frustrating – you girls feel me? I can’t wait to just be average.
- Being able to go to Disneyland and walk around all day without terrible pain. I’ve never been to a Disney park and this has been a dream of mine since I was a kid. I’ve avoided going thus far as an adult because I know I’ll have a lot more fun if I’m not in pain, and I continued with the “I’ll start tomorrow” mindset with a diet for years. I’m gonna make it there now, I’m determined! I’ll see you soon, Mouse!
- Boots! They’re uncomfortable and unflattering on me now, but I have a feeling I’m going to have an obsession with them. Here we go…
- Sitting comfortably in chairs with arms! I can’t remember the last time that happened. That awkward position can get uncomfortable real quick! I’ve already noticed a difference in my general width when it comes to chairs, so I’m excited to see it continue!
- Getting to a place where exercise feels good, and it’s something I enjoy doing. It’s been a long time since exercise has been fun to me, and that’s always been because of my weight. I don’t remember what exercise feels like without all of the negative parts that come with being overweight – but I am excited to find out!
- More band shirts! I don’t even know how many times I’ve been to a concert and wanted a cute band t-shirt or hoodie or tank, only to find that, as per usual, there were no sizes above XL. At some point you just kind of stop trying, because they never carry bigger sizes. But now I can actually showcase the things I’m a fan of, especially bands. There will certainly be no shortage of fandoms in my closet!
- No more sitting at the handicapped accessible desks at school! When I was in college (4 years, no degree yet, Psychology major), notes were impossible to take in lecture halls unless I was able to sit at a desk. These were usually at the front of the classroom, meant for those in wheelchairs, but it’s where the fat people sat. Fear of this situation contributed to why I didn’t finish – I was too afraid of switching to a State University from my little Community College to finish out my required courses. I didn’t want to deal with the anxiety and humiliation of it all, especially on top of being in a new place with large crowds of people in the age group that typically weren’t always kind to me. It’s going to feel so good to be able to walk onto campus and worry solely about my studies – not about how my weight is going to influence my day.
- Reaching my goal weight and knowing that no one else did this – that it was all me. I made better choices, I made the changes, I used the tool I’d been given and I invested in myself for the first time in my life. That I am worth something, because I made myself worth something.